This post will probably come off as a bit crazy, but here it goes anyways… If I am being honest, I feel so connected to Heaven anymore that I almost feel alien on this planet a bit. I have this ultimate fantasy in my head that when this situation ends that there is going to be some big movement of the Holy Spirit that might usher in lots of miracles and hopefully sometime not long after that, bring about the rapture.
I feel like being stuck in this situation keeps me tethered to Earth and its Earthly ways. So, by being stuck in this situation, I feel I will continue to experience what it means to be Human on Earth and all that comes with it. I was hoping for that ultimate fantasy and the potential to kind of skip the second half of life here.
I will also continue to experience life from the angle of the “working class”. Which does make me feel more connected to the world. One thing I was worried about, was that if this situation did end, that I would kind of lose that connection to the “working people”. We are all a big family in my mind.
But it seems I will get the full Human experience and all that comes with it. A once in an eternity experience. I don’t plan to ever experience life from this hardcore of a philosophical concept ever again. And I will still be praying for the rapture.
I suppose in my mind that was like my big chance to maybe be able to avoid the “dying process”. I had this big end of the world type vision in my head that just seemed like the perfect ending to Earth’s story. The fact that this continues just speaks to how deep of an evil resides here on Earth. I am still hoping for the rapture, but am now more and more accepting my Earthly mortality and the prospect of having to go through the dying process. Accepting and also gradually getting more comfortable with it in general.
This is just where I am at mentally anymore though… Heaven is just as real to me as this Earth we are living on. I do all sorts of this like cross dimensional thinking between Earth and Heaven. I am way down the rabbit hole of the connection between Heaven and Earth and Earth’s purpose. And I feel I have a prominent part of the story. This is how and what I really think, I am not lying in the slightest.
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