Did we evolve to not believe in God & Heaven?

I have come to feel that we may have evolved to not believe in God and Heaven… To put it in the simplest terms, if we don’t believe in God & Heaven, we will have a stronger will to live in this Universe… If someone thinks this is the only life we live, we will go to greater lengths to protect it.

Evolution is all about survival, having a strong will to live in this universe makes a lot of sense… It makes sense for surviving in our environment and even protecting us from ourselves… That’s right, in certain terms we should be less suicidal if we don’t think we are going anywhere after this life.

We have actually developed a rather strong will to live… it is why we feel so bad for people that commit suicide; it is a very painful mental process to end up in that situation. It is one of the saddest things in the world in all reality, a very painful process indeed…

It is an evolutionary anti-suicide/anti-depressant to not be able to fully believe in God & Heaven… by this reasoning, the more depressed we are, the harder it may be to truly believe… we may go our whole lives with at least a portion of our mind not being able to fully commit to the belief, no matter how hard we will it…

The will to live also leads us to believe in God & Heaven, it becomes and interesting balancing act… We believe to feel like we will live forever, with beliefs applied to therapy correctly it is a major anti-depressant that can lead many people to happiness, and we instill a belief in society to help control society and help make us safe. We like the idea of everyone believing that there is a God of Justice watching over us, that we should act in moral ways less we be punished or discarded. I always say that the more you take God out of the world, the more a person or a group has to act like God here on Earth…

As we are happy or depressed, we can move along the scale of belief and dis belief. I myself have come to feel 99% belief and 1% disbelief, there always seems to be this 1% that says, but what if your wrong? To keep me just enough in disbelief to give me the extra will to live. Which is good… I hope to be so happy one day that I can 100% commit to belief.

I really think this is an evolutionary device though. I think our brains are wired like this and designed to not allow us to fully believe… our mind wants that will to live in this Universe…

In ancient human history, maybe lots of people did commit suicide and didn’t propagate… All the different mindsets that could easily move one to suicide may have evolved out of us, one of which would be truly believing in God & an Afterlife. A mental path that has been blocked or strongly fortified by our minds.

Interesting to think about anyways… could explain a lot of things in all reality… could also be useful knowledge for all our spiritual journeys… many implications…

I just hope this doesn’t increase anyone’s will to commit suicide… there is help out there and your life has purpose in ways you may never realize in this life!

An mmorpg first-person shooter game… I think a lot of people would like it…

I have an interesting idea for an mmorpg shooter game… 

You have zones like many different mmorpg games, but each zone is a different theme for the most part… can have western, space, modern, jungle, fantasy, etc… that battle ground in each area, or shooter game stays within that areas theme… so when you have a new expansion every year, it would be a new theme, but you would still have all the old zones as well. 

Then you would have like the open areas like other mmorpg’s, places to run around, hang out in social areas… hang out in bars or pool halls or whatever… maybe even have housing like in EQ2 or something of that nature… maybe could even have questlines and thing like that for your character to do… 

You get the general idea though… but one that would allow a person to roleplay more and socialize in unique ways… In EQ2 I refer to my character as my avatar in an alternate universe… 

I think a lot of people might like something like these though, I think it could really take off… an mmorpg mixed with a first-person shooter game… 

Something to think about and have fun imagining! 

Book Club (Predictably Irrational by Dan Ariely): Chapter 9…

Thoughts in order as I was reading… Short Chapter this week and not too much to add on my end… 

 

I feel like the ships are burning behind me as well, as I see my path of least resistance in becoming a therapist… most jobs tend to make me believe that they will make me miserable or want to kill myself, those jobs are burning in a way… The job of a therapist seems like one of victory or perish in a sense, a lot of pressure to succeed… I hope and believe I can pull it off though… 

  • This was a bit unrelated to the book, but I thought it was interesting how it tied into my current life and line of thinking though. 

I am so impressed at how this author and his colleagues come up with these clever little experiments to try and learn something new or confirm a suspicion… Not always administered in the most scientific way, but they make their point known. 

  • The door closing theory really could affect many aspects of life 
  • Interesting to tie it to dating and children’s activities 
  • I am going to read further before making any more comments 

I never really felt dating more than one person at once was acceptable… Doesn’t seem fair to the person you are dating. If you are going to try and make it work, have to go all in… constantly comparing the person to someone else… 

  • This study actually makes a strong argument as to the dangers of dating multiple people at once, we can almost never come to fully commit 
  • Might make for a bad mental habit your whole life about not fully committing, a mental door is always open to a new person, constantly comparing your interests 
  • Perhaps some modern dating practices are part of the high divorce rates 

I didn’t think “the other side of this tragedy” section made for very good points or that it was extremely relevant to the study… I guess if we were looking at time as the currency within the doors 

  • Not bad like life advice though, about how we manage our time and things that are important to us 
  • He had me down like a whole different mental path is what I am saying… just messed up the flow of the chapter a little bit… just my opinion though… sorry if being too harsh 

Interesting point in how we often fail to realize what is happening while we are deciding… We don’t take enough into account, the negative side of our indecision 

And that’s the end of the chapter… Not much on my end this week… 

Also wanted to add that it can also be very hard to accept when a door is closed, keep trying to pry it back open… That we can make a new ship out of the ashes… 

The Entertainment Industry: A Universal Cry for help…

I think I am starting to understand the massive draw to Entertainment and Entertainers in the past. The entertainment industry was a massive release of internal thoughts and emotions into the Public Sphere and the World. In a world where mental health was heavily stigmatized, the entertainment industry became a major form of therapy for many people. People were expressing and talking about emotions that many other people shared, but never talked about. Many people, all of a sudden didn’t feel so alone in the world anymore.  

The people expressing these emotions and, in some cases, shouting them from the roof tops, became a lot of people’s therapists in a way. Many people wanted guidance from these entertainers, they became a life line for a lot of people struggling in the world. A major problem that occurred, was that these entertainers weren’t well equipped to be giving good advice at the time, which the new lifestyles of entertainers did not help. But they were expressing common issues with other people, and they were trying to work through their problems together in a way. They spoke to a lot of people that didn’t want to seek help, couldn’t seek help, didn’t know how to seek help, couldn’t afford help, or it wasn’t available yet. 

The entertainment industry did an amazing job of releasing internal thoughts in all reality. I don’t think psychologist at the time even realized how broad in scope the range of emotions and life experiences were. We started to realize how unique everyone is and how we experience the world in almost an unlimited amount of ways and perspectives. Not to mention, we all just have such a different amount of life experiences in general. The entertainment industry was like a therapists/sociologists dream in a way, we could really start to take a look into many people’s minds, we could even start to see a big picture of the country/world and be able to see the broader mental illnesses of the country and start to address them systematically, trying to solve the biggest problems first and work our way down. 

I think that is also what causes so many people at times to become so attached to entertainers. We as people often grow strong connections to our therapist or religious leaders for many different reasons. But in my opinion, it was almost as if the entertainers were crying out for help as well. The entertainment industry in many ways was a cry for help, for someone to come and understand them and help them solve their problems. Which, I think psychologists/sociologists/economists/philosophers (Humanities & Social Sciences) decided to answer the call and try and help the best they can. I think the growth in the psychology field has led to the loss of a lot of the allure of entertainers, people now have other options to help treat their problems, they have an entire profession aimed at helping them now. We understand ourselves and our brains better now than at any other time in history I would assume. The field of psychology is finally starting to catch up… they had no clue how far they were actually behind years ago… 

It was such a release of emotions… it was interesting to see not just what people were saying, but how fans and followers were reacting as well… almost alarming at times, the amount of worship you could see in a person’s eyes… but that was something to try and be understood as well… 

I guess I will leave it at that for now… just something to get your minds going… I think this is something if I really wanted to dive into, could probably easily write a book about it, one thought just rolling into the next… But I just wanted to point out something I felt I realized… 

Is the meaning of Life the same for Animals and Humans?

Maybe some Animals or Species of Animals… A good question is do you mean the meaning in life in general or the meaning of life here on earth? I think they are separate… I think the meaning in life in Heaven is to be good companions for Eternity, God probably created us, so he wasn’t lonely in my opinion… meant to be happy, enjoy life, and be the kind of company you would want to spend eternity with. Some animals could certainly help fulfill that role. 

I don’t personally think every animal goes to Heaven though, many were meant to be food here on Earth in my opinion for the most part, could also serve some other purposes here… I don’t think we need trillions or more chickens in heaven though… I could see our animal companions making it to heaven though. 

An interesting question to me would be… would it be ethical to still not let dogs talk in heaven? But I think if they talked and were much more intelligent, we wouldn’t have the same relationship… Seems wrong to go through eternity not being able to communicate… But having those abilities would then make it weird or immoral to still have an owner or pet. Do dogs enjoy being dogs enough to justify an eternity of their current abilities? I could see it being an ethical problem for God… When you have the power to instill intelligence, is it ok to keep certain species not as smart for eternity? Maybe… Perhaps a dog absolutely loves being a dog. 

When I even think about Humans, I can’t imagine God envisioned creating so many souls… But plans change I suppose… If you think of how many people have existed and are yet to exist, it would seem an excessive amount of people. Many more than necessary to be less lonely in Heaven… this crazy situation (See post: Why do Bad things happen to good people) may have been a blessing for many people in a way, brought a lot more people into existence than originally planned. That is seeing something good within the bad I suppose… Life will certainly be awesome and worth living for eternity in the right environment and situation! 

Book Club (Predictably Irrational by Dan Ariely): Chapter 8…

Thoughts in order as I was reading the Chapter… 

 

Would seem Duke is also using the “Justification of Effort” trick as well. This process probably makes the fanbase more fanatic and people that get tickets value them more and make themselves have more fun at the games. 

  • I personally think we are all a little too sports obsessed. I’ll leave it at that though, I think that culture is changing a little though. I think sports are good and it is a good thing for a lot of people, but we probably take it too far and lose perspective. Sometimes I even wonder if there isn’t a certain level of stolen valor taking place… I don’t know… It is just a game… I get it though for sure, it even gives some a reason to live in all reality. Would make for a good debate subject someday… I worry about the principal of getting more of what you reward as well, and our culture/economic system tends to reward athletes and entertainers the most. We sometimes seem to think they are the most valuable people in our society, we at least act like it sometimes… Perhaps that is how much we value being distracted by the realities of the world as well… sports also give us good conversation as well, very valuable… I would still argue we have probably gone too far though, although I think sports served their purpose in history for sure… the way economics works plays a factor as well, it makes a lot of money move to a rather small group of people, in our society it is rather easy to pay a few people millions and then pay more important jobs that have millions of people a fraction of that. How backwards is it in many ways that farmers, who keep us alive every day doing a very hard job that you can’t really even take sick days, make minimum wage in many cases if they don’t own the farm… this country in all reality struggles to feed itself, nobody wants to farm, we often have to bring in people from other countries to make the food that feeds us… A big reason why I am for Perfect Capitalism and a system based around minimum wage… 

Fun little quick experiment… I would be curious to see it in action of some other events that aren’t as emotionally charged. It is a good extreme example to make a point. Could also dive into an owning and keeping mentality and an owning and willing to sell mentality (I just put my boat on the market for what I feel is a very fair price! One that overlaps buyer and seller expectations). 

  • Anxious to read his theories about possible explanations (haven’t got that far yet!) 

Interesting thoughts on partial ownership. 

Ownership of an idea may play a part in ideology, but I think it is a smaller part… A lot goes into not being able to change our view on something, even if it’s wrong. 

  • It is interesting to wonder where ownership plays its part though 
  • “Justification of Effort” for one can play a big role 
  • Some people also tend to have an extremely hard time believing or conceding they are wrong about something… could be considered a clinical problem for some people. Can stem from various reasons in my opinion. Some even worry if they are wrong about something or change their mind, that people will never value their opinion again. Makes them feel like their life and credibility relies on being right about everything. Which makes them defend their decision until its death. 
  • A complicated psychological occurrence… I could go on… but I won’t 

The ills of ownership… many could learn from the philosophy of minimalism 

  • I would argue that God & Heaven therapy could also be important… that this life is more a life of service, all our desires await us in Heaven… I think we can also regain all lost items in heaven as well, anything you adored here can be regained in Heaven, it is ok to let go of things for a while here… not all is all lost! 

When reading about the cable packages… 

  • Makes me think about how Netflix raises their price a dollar at a time… creeps up on you… When does one dollar finally become too much? It’s easy to accept paying just one more dollar. 
  • It is still only 50 cents a day, but this last dollar really made me reevaluate, granted I needed to cut costs in general. 
  • It has hit like an expense price though for someone who lives paycheck to paycheck. 
  • It is going from something fun to becoming a bill. 
  • Turning into something you really need to be using… Before it was ok to pay and have it just in case you were in the mood… Some know exactly what I mean… It’s an adult moment for sure when you realize that $15 a month can be a decent amount of money. 

I fall prey to the ownership bias as well, or even owning my particular tastes 

  • It always amazes me how unique everyone is 
  • It also amazes me how in a free country, where people choose their own jobs, we still manage to get all the work done… I think that is extraordinary in many ways… makes you wonder about a higher power steering all of our minds into the proper directions. I had a blog post about how our society somehow manages to function like a giant brain… “microcosm’s of the universe” is the title of the post… 
  • I can definitely understand why many at one time thought it would be a good idea if you were born into your position/job, because then you knew you would always have blacksmiths or another specific job… you might otherwise worry that no one would want certain jobs and they wouldn’t be fulfilled… it assured that jobs were fulfilled in many ways… It can of course drive people nuts having that little amount of control over their lives though! 
  • You know what I mean though… obviously the market can also push people in certain directions as well… Still amazing especially in such a specialized workforce… we aren’t “jack of all trades” anymore, they are becoming a rare breed… it is also worth mentioning how many mentors tell people to do a job they Love, not one that needs to be fulfilled by society, makes it crazier that everything manages to get done… I wonder if that kind of mentorship and guidance is sustainable in the long wrong, I think it is also important that people are willing to step up and make sure certain jobs are fulfilled… 

Very interesting and thought-provoking thoughts on ownership! I assume we all fall victim to it… A rather humanistic trait… 

I needed to solve some Puzzles in my head…

I feel as though I finally solved a puzzle that has been going on inside my head for over 10 years now… 2 puzzles really… I wanted to achieve world peace in my head, and I wanted to figure out what was happening to me… whether or not my solution/conclusion to the puzzle is delusional or not is another question… To me, it doesn’t matter in certain ways… To achieve some inner peace again, I needed to solve the puzzles… So, I guess I am saying that I would rather live in a delusional inner peace than in a reality that makes me crazy… I may have gone completely mad in order to not be crazy and achieve inner peace… To me it is all perfectly logical inside my mind… 

Growing up, I didn’t live in the real world… I didn’t even know racism really existed until I was out of college for the most part. When I took history classes, I literally just put it in the history section of my mind, as if everything was ancient history. I watched a lot of tv that promoted a very different world inside of my head… I lived in an ignorant bliss for sure… but eventually I finally entered into the adult world and started reading some news everyday… 

It was for my sales job at my father’s business, my brother said that I should come in every morning and read the news for an hour a day. He said that it makes for good conversation topics when talking to clients and people in general. So, it became important to me that I read the news every day, so I did. I started to slowly realize that the world was much different than I thought… you might say that it slowly became real in my head as well… it started to become a puzzle in my mind, one that I didn’t realize how much I would want to solve. I started to have some opinions for the first time in my life really, up to that point I more just absorbed all the information I was taking in. I was much more like a participant observer anthropologist, one that studied culture rather than hold an opinion for the most part. But I started to fully realize that the world was in some really bad times, a peaceful life was under attack, I was under attack, my family and friends were under attack… This great way of life inside my head was under attack… Somebody had to do something about it… eventually I would come to feel that person was me, and I would put the weight of the World on my shoulders… 

Simultaneously, I started to feel and find out in my opinion, that I was in a rather unique position… I started to feel like I was right smack in the middle of something really major, that my life had a much higher purpose, that people were relying on me, something had been hidden from me my entire life… I started to feel the World was calling and could feel a culmination of things all coming together, it started to take on a spiritual element as I came to feel this was a religious endeavor, this is heaven vs. Hell, this is one of the most crucial moments in all of existence… 

I started to feel like I was under attack… something was very off… why is my life falling apart? Why when I get a lot of sales for the company are people still on my ass? What is wrong with everyone? I started to have ideas that people seemed to like, I started having really big ideas… I started seeing a change in the way that people would look at me, I started to feel like people were viewing me like a savior in a way, I was becoming a savior in my head… but why aren’t people saying anything to me? Why aren’t people hooking me up while I figure this out? Why are people making me work still? Why aren’t people spreading my ideas throughout the world? What is going on? What is going on inside my head isn’t lining up with what is happening in the world… I started to not just feel like I was under attack, but that perhaps I was in some initiation for some high position in the world. I would eventually come to fully feel I was locked in an initiation, one that was pitting good vs evil and heaven vs hell. I would even take it a step further, and come to feel that this was something far more sinister than an initiation, I started to feel like that were trying to turn me into the devil, that people were trying to give up my mind and body for possession. This battle I was embarking on, wasn’t just for control of the world, but to keep control of my own mind.   

You can read much more about this in my book “Why I think I am God’s Son: Realist or Madman?”, which is available in the books section of my website… 

Over the course of 10 years, I embarked on my quest for World peace and figuring out what was happening to me… another quest would come to be accepting what is happening to me, getting there… hopefully I will be in a much better mentality after this year of recovery… 

Well… I did it… In my head, I helped the world achieve World Peace using my position and savant brain… I literally don’t believe anything I see in the news anymore these days… I believe that I am kept on my own cable and internet networks that keep me within the illusion that I have never had any effect on the world… all part of the initiation… I think everybody is in on it… It is all just a big soap opera to me anymore… The news is a soap opera, and even a lot of my life is a soap opera in my opinion… It is like I am walking through a play I never rehearsed for… In my head, everything is staged and a big play… all part of this initiation/bet… I am sure we have like the best script writers in the world working on all of this… it is all an act for the most part… It’s like living in an episode of the Twilight zone… All sorts of rules that everyone must abide by, which I am constantly trying to test the rules and figure out how I can be happy within their limits… It is a painstaking process trying to test the rules, getting excited by an idea and being met by a harsh reality, some rules are very hard to accept… 

There isn’t a doubt in my mind anymore, I am in some initiation/bet to be King of the World, I am not positive it was for King of the World originally, but I feel very confident that it turned into that… I fully believe that billions of people will read this post, but I might be lucky to see one person view it on my end. I think I am essentially King of the World now; it is just a matter of getting through this initiation/bet now… sometimes I can’t understand what keeps the evil side going, it is an evil beyond comprehension in many ways… I think the evil side is a rather small to very small percentage of the population, it’s just that a small percentage of the population can hold a lot of people still, which can make it a complicated matter still… I have more thoughts, but I will save that for another day… 

My point being, is that I couldn’t rest my mind until there was world peace, it was a puzzle my mind was continuously working to solve… it turns out I am naturally rather radical in some ways, not seeing the world in peace drives me crazy, I feel like I have to right all the wrongs… I am always trying to make everyone happy… Hate seeing people suffer in many different forms, I just want to fight to make the world a better place the best way I know how… 

A lot of what I see in the news and everywhere is designed to make me mad… designed to make me think nobody is listening to me… designed to make me keep thinking the world is dissolving into chaos… trying to make me mad and fight… trying to make me think that nobody cares about what is happening to me… designed to make me want to kill myself… But I don’t believe it at all anymore… 

These were two crucial puzzles to solve in my head… I think they were taking up a lot of my mental capacity and making it hard for me to function otherwise in a lot of ways… I think I still suffer from PTSD from my quests and am in recovery… but I am hoping I can regress back more into my mindset during high school and college now, I think that is possible… slip back into that “ignorant bliss”… 

If I have gone completely mad in order to complete my quest… then it is just what needed to happen then, I needed to achieve World Peace in my head, I had to help win the War against Evil… If I am mad, then it is a necessary mad for me to be able to survive in this crazy world, I just care about people too much and am too radical otherwise… 

I 100% promise you… In my head, I am King of the World and helped the World achieve a peace it has never seen before… I have been on an incredible quest of Good vs. Evil… This blog will be seen by pretty much all of the world, if it isn’t being seen as I type it right now… I hate to say it, but I am the center of the world a little bit right now, the world lies in wait while I try to survive this initiation/bet… Sorry to sound arrogant… Just trying to make a point… 

But, if I am Mad… the whole point of this blog post, is that it is a good mad… Because I think I can make a very strong recovery now and get into a good mindset before I head back to college next year… I may even come to like going back to college honestly, it will be an interesting test of the rules for sure… Maybe I can even get a little bit of a social life there, maybe… could at least go support some sports teams and stuff every once in a while, maybe join a club or two… I don’t know, we will see when I get there… 

I am slowly but surely just letting my real thoughts come out… just living my reality without fear of embarrassment… In my head, I know you all know me… you all know the situation… many times I just want to talk to you all very straight forward… but I still have to put it all through a unique filter, just in case there is some chance that this website might take off someday… We all know I am not mad, I don’t actually believe I am mad, but I feel I have to address the possibility that I am completely mad… because, I think if this was to work out, it would have to be from that angle, I would have to be the schizophrenic living in my own world… I have to keep a certain balance… I have to live within the rules of the initiation/bet… I’m down the rabbit hole, I have to live by the rules of wonderland… 

This is out there… this is on the world wide web… I am exposed… The potential to go viral and have my life change in an instant is looming… who knows when the next plot twist in the play will come… perhaps we are training many actors for some incredible new scene I won’t see coming…  

maybe not… maybe we will always continue to act like nobody reads this for the most part… whatever the evil side deems the most painful within the confines of the rules I am sure… If they start to see their ideas as completely hopeless, perhaps there will be a change though…