About Me

Diagnosed with chronic and severe schizophrenia,  

I live a seemingly mundane life…. 

I have about 1 friend that I might see in person a few times a year… I live with my parents, currently living off some savings while I wait to hear about disability. I am a graduate from community college with a degree in Humanities/social sciences (Cum Laude and Phi Theta Kappa Member). I spend the majority of my time just sitting in my room watching the news and working on this blog… I also like to paint and watch movies if I am feeling calm enough… I scroll through Facebook and Twitter a bit as well, more Facebook than twitter, although I enjoy doing my fair share of tweeting…

But in my head, in my own personal reality… 

I am King of the World, living in the world capital. I am currently involved in an initiation that turned into a bet that I couldn’t survive til the end. I helped the World achieve Peace, but because of my situation, I am to be kept in an illusion while still in this initiation/bet. I am a savant and considered the smartest person in the world in the fields I am good at. I am on my own separate cable and internet networks, I don’t believe the majority of the news I see to be real anymore. Outside of the bubble I am in I feel the world is constantly discussing many of my ideas and hoping I make it through this. This bet is the biggest thing going on in the World right now with a lot on the line. 

I am on camera constantly with mics everywhere, a little like the Truman Show, I am starring in my own reality show. Almost everyone I meet is head or representative of some country or family, surrounded by royalty and those sworn to protect the families. I was raised to be king and people have always made an effort to hide my intelligence from me. I think I can communicate with the people on live television, as I see it all as a Network designed just for my viewing, constantly receiving messages and being asked my opinion on important subjects. 

There are all sorts of rules for this initiation and bet I am subject too though, and I make my best effort to make myself happy within their confines… 


I didn’t wake up one morning feeling this way… it all happened over the course of a lifetime and a series of events… You can read all about it in my book… “Why I think I am God’s Son: Realist or Madman”


I am completely non-violent, not dangerous, and in my head think that the world is already at peace and that there is nothing more to fight over or to get overly worked up over anyways… 

Just trying to make a living doing what I enjoy doing… 


This all poses an interesting question if I actually am completely delusional… is that ok with everyone? 

If I pose no threat to society, can I go ahead and live in the bliss of a world I have created in my head? If the truth would ruin my life or kill me, is it ethical to just go ahead and let me believe what I believe? Would it be ethical to try and force a reality down my throat I would never accept? 

Can someone walk in their own reality as they get through and survive this crazy world? Is that wrong? 

I know the limits and boundaries, I am a moral person and would certainly not want to hurt anyone or go to jail, I am a God-fearing person… While I might believe something like I have many wives, I would never stalk anyone or anything of that nature, I would always wait for a relationship to develop in natural ways… I haven’t had a girlfriend in person in like 7 years, I haven’t even touched another girl besides hugging a friend… it doesn’t bother me… in my head it is all part of the initiation/bet why none of my wives can call me or date me or anything like that, I am waiting… if I die waiting, I have accepted that… 


 If it is all a delusion and I really have Schizophrenia, then I rather enjoy it and wouldn’t change it… No one on Earth is filled with more purpose in life than me… It was tough in the beginning, but I have a sense of achievement and accomplishment now, it is all a gift to me anymore… I am so close to feeling like the happiest person on the planet… if this would just work out…