I have still been getting over my existential ocd. I have actually made huge strides in that department. I don’t really go over the calculations again and again anymore, rather I just use some mantras that stop me from diving deeper into the thoughts. As I have been developing mantras and thinking of what to think that gives me peace, I got to thinking about ourselves on an individual level.
On an individual existential level, I think we are all our own central character in an earthly soap opera. While I don’t think we live in a literal pre-determined existence, I just think that this was planned so well, that it all is essentially pre-determined. We are all in a play with no rehearsal.
But, how would this apply to my fear of death and my existential ocd? I think on an individual level, the earthly death we see around us is just an illusion. We won’t personally experience death. We will have no loss of consciousness. Death does not apply to us on an individual level. Life is just a series of being awake and sleeping sometimes. At “death” we will just close our eyes for but a second and a miracle will happen. The show just keeps going on.
It’s all just the matrix in a sense. We are just spending some time on the earth stage right now. It’s all an illusion in a way. We are essentially in the oasis right now. This is how real living out our fantasies and philosophical concepts can be. We will have a continuous stream of consciousness.
Hopefully that makes sense in the way I am experiencing it in my mind… For me it helps me feel like an Eternal Being. Makes me fear less and rather more just pray for strength to come to me in difficult times. Yesterday I was even thinking how on my deathbed I would like a Happy Retirement banner to be on the wall in my room. Perhaps the T in retirement could be a cross hehe.
Another effort in trying to solve/conquer the “evolved fear of death” puzzle in my mind. Perhaps it is something that will help you as well and maybe unlock some parts of your mind.
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