Does God exist? This is considered one of the biggest questions in Humanity. That isn’t just me saying that either. People believe that being able to answer that question would change the world. So, if I believe that I answered that question, what would it imply about my situation?
I wouldn’t personally say that I believe that I answered the question of whether God exists, I would say I know I did. Yet, I have only ever gotten a couple comments about it from other people. It’s largely just been crickets.
If someone were to answer that question, I’d imagine it would be national news. It would spark lots of discussions around the world. I would also imagine that the person that answered it would win a noble prize and be making the rounds on television programs, Universities, etc.
So, if I believe/know that I have answered that question, logically I would have to believe that I am part of some large conspiracy theory. I would have to believe that everyone I come in contact with or witness is just acting (because they aren’t acknowledging what I did). I would have to believe that I am on my own internet server (because no one is talking about it there). I would have to believe that all news that I see is altered or fake (because answering that question would be national news). These have enormous implications for me personally.
Why would I be in the middle of a conspiracy like that? These implications have sent me down a rabbit hole that can feel nearly endless at times with possibilities. But, that is my reality. I believe I am in the middle of a conspiracy theory. I believe I am in the middle of a conspiracy theory for many reasons. I believed I was in one well before I proved God’s existence. But, believing/knowing that really keeps me tethered to what I feel is my true reality. Especially because so much time has passed, at times I may question my sanity a bit.
I figured I would share that anyway. Lately I have been thinking about how I would explain my “delusions” to people. I feel this would be the most simple and concrete way. That if I believe/know I proved God’s existence, then I would have to be in one of if not the largest conspiracy’s ever to happen on Earth.
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