(Some thoughts (schizophrenic?) from the last few days)
I feel like my enemy has started to feel like I have been getting too rosy a picture in my head of the world lately…
I have started to feel like the battle for the minds and for the heart of the world is over… that essentially, the world war is over for the most part… that all is left now is this initiation/bet I am in…
There is still a group of evil people on the other side of this bet, but they have lost all of their arguments for why people should be against me and with them…
I think we are achieving happiness on levels never seen worldwide… I think the United States is the happiest it has ever been…
I have come to feel that much of this initiation/bet is pay to play, that my enemies have to pay so much money to make my life miserable… which I used to feel that many people in the middle of all this use to donate to their cause for various reasons… but I have since come to believe that I have won over their hearts and minds… that the only people left against me, are just the evil people on the other side, they can no longer convince people to help them and donate…
I could be wrong thinking people in the middle used to donate, perhaps it was all part of some evil illusion to make me feel a certain way… to try and make me mad at certain groups of people… although I think it was real and was all part of the battle over people’s mind… whether they would head to darkness or the light… it was mainly a battle over people’s minds that were depressed or already in a dark place due to many different reasons…
But I think that is over… I think everyone is happy with me now and wants to see me happy…
Recently though, the evil side has been making a push to make me think that the battle of minds still wages on… that people are donating and wish me harm… trying to make me think that there is still a large group of people that are miserable and want everyone to be as miserable as them… Trying to make me walk on eggshells with what I say or give up writing altogether…
I think you may get the basic jist…
I think there are absolute geniuses on the other side… people that would be some of the best psychologists in the world, but choose to use their abilities for evil… that they have devoted themselves to getting inside my head and trying to make me miserable and want to kill myself…
I always forget that many of them on the other side probably still generate money and can continue to fund evil deeds… that there may never be a stop to the attempts to make me miserable while I am in this… I have to remember to tell myself when I think some money is getting spent against me now, that it is just coming from them and not being donated by the rest of society…
I think they are working with limited funds now and always have to try and get the biggest bang for the buck… perhaps even little by little their members are leaving and switching sides…
But when I say something in a post like the inmates are running the asylum, that is like a perfect chance to attack… to make me think I insulted a lot of depressed and angry people that want to get even with me for saying something that could be seen as potentially mean…
They have been attempting to produce a whole slew of thoughts within my head lately to try and tarnish my world view… but I am choosing to believe that the war of the hearts and minds is over now… this is just limited funds trying to be spent in the most efficient way possible… that this too shall pass…
I am committed to press through and not believe this negativity… the pursuit of happiness continues…
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