On an eternal level, I believe ideas, inventions, innovations etc. will be communal. I don’t think anyone will lay claim to something for all eternity (besides God, who created/set the parameters of the Human Experience). 

Take a song for instance. There is a finite number of five minute songs in existence. We will be in an endless cycle of creating music, forgetting it, creating it again, etc. But, I believe we will be taking turns at creating those songs. All getting a chance to live out our fantasies. You will be the one creating and singing your favorite song someday, and not just in a simulated reality, but in Heaven itself.

But, I believe this is true for all ideas. That we will be in an endless cycle of creation, forgetting, creating again, etc. And that we will all be taking turns at being great thinkers, innovators, artists, developers, musicians, etc.

We all own all innovation in a sense, it’s just a matter of when it’s our time to be in the spotlight for it. It will be interesting to see how something like this knowledge affects our philosophies/experience in Heaven.

I have still been getting over my existential ocd. I have actually made huge strides in that department. I don’t really go over the calculations again and again anymore, rather I just use some mantras that stop me from diving deeper into the thoughts. As I have been developing mantras and thinking of what to think that gives me peace, I got to thinking about ourselves on an individual level.

On an individual existential level, I think we are all our own central character in an earthly soap opera. While I don’t think we live in a literal pre-determined existence, I just think that this was planned so well, that it all is essentially pre-determined. We are all in a play with no rehearsal.

But, how would this apply to my fear of death and my existential ocd? I think on an individual level, the earthly death we see around us is just an illusion. We won’t personally experience death. We will have no loss of consciousness. Death does not apply to us on an individual level. Life is just a series of being awake and sleeping sometimes. At “death” we will just close our eyes for but a second and a miracle will happen. The show just keeps going on.

It’s all just the matrix in a sense. We are just spending some time on the earth stage right now. It’s all an illusion in a way. We are essentially in the oasis right now. This is how real living out our fantasies and philosophical concepts can be. We will have a continuous stream of consciousness.

Hopefully that makes sense in the way I am experiencing it in my mind… For me it helps me feel like an Eternal Being. Makes me fear less and rather more just pray for strength to come to me in difficult times. Yesterday I was even thinking how on my deathbed I would like a Happy Retirement banner to be on the wall in my room. Perhaps the T in retirement could be a cross hehe.

Another effort in trying to solve/conquer the “evolved fear of death” puzzle in my mind. Perhaps it is something that will help you as well and maybe unlock some parts of your mind.

In Heaven I believe all beings will have an equal relative experience. Every being will think that their experience is the best experience. No beings will wish they were another being. Every being’s pleasure circuit will be wired in a way where they derive immense enjoyment from their experience. If you were to be a cat for a day, you would absolutely love your life and have no desire to be a Human again.

I think even something like Hunting & Fishing in Heaven would be a relative experience where you could make the animals feel like they were playing the best game in the world and that they would experience no pain or anything of that nature during the “Kill”. They would then be reborn again into the same existence.

I just truly believe that all beings’ pleasure circuits can be wired in a way that we will all relatively live the best life ever, all in Harmony with one another. Each of our own experiences, lending to every other being’s experience. We will all believe that we have it best.

I came across something in that book about freeing yourself from Death Anxiety that really connected with me. The authors were describing something called existential ocd and it described some of my thinking almost perfectly. I think it was very severe for a while and has been gradually getting better over time. I feel like it is something I could potentially get over almost completely.

It’s something that I probably would have dealt with at some point in time in my life in general, because the fear of death was always in the background and I would have had to come to terms with my own mortality. But, I think some life circumstances kinda pumped steroids into it though.

My mind started speeding up and I started getting racing thoughts many years ago. Especially when my schizophrenia was really starting to onset and I was questioning my life and feeling like I was in the middle of a conspiracy theory. I was in a race to figure things out and to help the world. So my brain really got fired up.

Then eventually when I started to get depressed and have negative thoughts, I was still thinking fast, so those kind of mixed together. I would eventually develop suicidal thoughts as well. I was trying to solve the world’s problems and dealing with all sorts of negative thoughts, my mind was starting to get really screwed up and it was still racing.

Eventually I started to develop a strong fear of death and hypochondria, which I feel were in direct relation to my negative and suicidal thinking. I feel those things are the exact opposite of suicidal thinking. So it was my mind’s way of keeping me alive. A form of anti depressant and anti suicide. 

I was mentally all over the place during that time and my mind was still racing. My racing mind just went along with whatever I was thinking about. I had started taking medicine, started reading about mindfulness and breathing techniques, and had started my journey to feeling better and getting into better mental health. I’m not sure I am recalling the exact order of events, but it was something along those lines.

I started getting lots of physical sensations, strong ones. Feelings that would really grab your attention or make you worry about your health. I would eventually learn that my mind was just doing a form of forced mindfulness. By giving me overwhelming sensations, I would be forced to focus or think about that, rather than my normal negative thinking. Then while I was focused on something besides my negative thoughts, my mind could go to work on getting rid of all of the negative thought patterns that I had developed. I completely embraced what my mind was doing. I can remember sometimes when I felt the sensations were too much and I would wish they would stop. And when they did stop a couple times and my old negative thinking came back to the forefront, I was begging for the physical sensations to come back again. I would get a glimpse of the way I used to think and couldn’t believe what a nightmare I was living in.

But, my mind completely took control of me. It broke me down to the point where I was relearning how to think again. The physical sensations would be so bad at times that I would just be curled up in a ball and scared to think about anything in case it was something that my brain felt was bad for me. It felt sometimes like someone had literally kicked the cr*p out of me. It was an extreme form of therapy. 

It broke me down to where I was not thinking almost at all. Then I would have to test the waters and see what was acceptable to think about lest my brain beat me down again. Eventually I would start thinking more and think things were going pretty good and then one day my brain would decide we are going to work on these types of thoughts next. Just one day my brain would start beating me up again and I would have to figure out what it wanted from me. My brain was systematically fixing my thinking. It started with my worst mental habits at first and worked its way up. And I never knew when we would start working on the next things. Maybe a month or two later all of a sudden I would be flooded with strong physical sensations and my brain would start working on the next bad mental habit. 

It’s insane what your mind is capable of. But at the root of it, your mind wants to be happy and relaxed. It wants to achieve a homeostasis. It all really kinda started when I first started meditating, doing breathing exercises, and taking my medicine. I was briefly able to show my brain at times what relaxation felt like and what was possible. Once it got a taste of that calmness, it was on a mission to have that feeling all of the time.

But, anyways, during that time my brain definitely took advantage of my fear of death and hypochondria. It would make me feel sensations that would trigger those feelings all the time. I’m sure my mind was thinking, this type of thinking is way better than the negative thinking and suicidal thoughts. In fact it is the exact opposite. It became acceptable thinking for my mind and was even encouraged by my brain. It was the state of mind that my brain was trying to achieve all of the time so that it could work on getting rid of all my bad thought patterns.

So, I started thinking about death and my own mortality all the time. Which is uncomfortable in its own way, especially when you are scared of dying. It wasn’t necessarily that I didn’t like thinking about death and Heaven, it was that I didn’t like being scared of dying all the time. So queue the existential crisis. I wanted to know for certain that Heaven was real and that was where I was going. I wanted to be certain that I was eternal. I didn’t want to believe in Heaven, I wanted to be positive. So, I just started thinking about that stuff all the time. My mind found this to be acceptable thinking and did things to keep it going.

I started figuring out all sorts of different facts and things that made me feel better. I proved God’s existence amongst other things. I just compiled many facts and reasons why I should be certain that God & Heaven existed and that I would live forever. It would give me moments where I was certain and would feel good. But, then I would lose that feeling and need to reassure myself again and again. It formed this loop of just doing the same calculations and reassuring myself over and over again. Every once in a while adding in some new facts or thoughts. But I would just enter into this loop everyday and spend most of my time there.

In the beginning of all that I still had racing thoughts a bit, so that thinking was fast at times. Granted, my thoughts were starting to slow down. And even at one point in time my brain started to see racing thoughts as a mental problem, so it started working on that as well. Even to this day when I get racing thoughts at times it is normally just a matter of time before I start getting physical sensations unless I am able to get them under control beforehand.

But, I started to believe that my racing thoughts were kind of the way that my mind worked. That I would just always think fast and needed something to think about. I started to see this fear of death thinking loop as like the ultimate way to cure my boredom. I could never get myself to be certain enough to end the cycle, so it was/is something I can always think endlessly about.

My thinking just gradually keeps getting more and more slower and under control now though. Even when I am in the loop, I am not necessarily thinking extremely fast. And now my thinking is slowing down to a point where I can enjoy thinking about other things now. Before I just felt like I would get bored with other lines of thinking so fast and would need to revert back to my fear of death loop so that I wouldn’t get bored. I started spending less and less time in my loop and enjoying other thinking though. Granted I was still spending a lot of time in the loop.

The fear of death anxiety was starting to annoy me a bit though and eventually I decided to look for a book. I feel that I was supposed to be in that loop for a while to learn a lot of things and share my thoughts with people. It definitely served its purpose of diverting my thinking away from negative and suicidal thoughts while my brain repaired itself and pruned my thought patterns. It served the greater purpose of God’s Plan under the Holy Spirit’s guidance and leadership. Definitely meant to happen, and played an important part of my recovery. Played an important part in just making me feel wise and putting me into a good place spiritually.

But, I started reading the book and there was a section about something called existential ocd, and it explained the way I was thinking almost perfectly. I 100% had that. Still do to some extent. But, I feel that the book and that knowledge has come to me at the perfect time in my journey. It connected with me immediately and I started connecting so many dots. It also almost immediately allowed myself to detach myself from that thinking. I started to see that loop almost as a program that my brain is running. I didn’t believe it was my thinking anymore or necessarily part of me. It was just a program and a tool that I used. I am able to observe it. It coincided perfectly with another book I am reading about mindfulness when it speaks about observing a program like that or what that author would call “the thinking man”. That thinking wasn’t who I am.

So I had this immediate detachment when I read about existential ocd and I thought about it for a little bit. I thought, I don’t need to be in or use that program anymore. I can stop running the numbers all the time to reassure myself and give myself small glimpses of calm before the loop starts again. 

I thought, you are certain, you have run the same numbers thousands of times and came to the same conclusion that God Exists, Heaven is real, and that we are Eternal. The only thing left is a small amount of faith. For the first time in a long time, if not ever, I need to engage in faith regarding death and going to Heaven. I need to just have complete faith in God in general now.

I feel a great comparison is the Wright brothers and the invention of the airplane. They did all of the calculations and ran the numbers over and over again until they were certain. But, eventually they stopped running the numbers and put faith in the idea that the plane would actually fly, and it did. It was all really set in stone beforehand, it was a fact, but they still needed that faith in the middle. They were facing the possibility of death. Even though the possibility didn’t really exist in a philosophical or theological sense.

But, now I just think it is time to stop calculating and running the exact same numbers over and over again. It is time for me to mentally step out of the loop and learn to have faith. It’s time for me to believe. The loop served its purpose, was meant to happen, and provided many important revelations, but it’s time to move on to the next phase of my life and thinking.

I think I am going to start working harder now on conquering my fear of death. It is something that I have embraced as the tool it was/is for long enough. Feels like one of the last big issues in my mind. 

I think it is something that was always a bit dormant in me my entire life. Something that would inevitably surface at some point in time though. It would have popped up at some point and I would have had to deal with it in one form or another. Whether it would have been during a midlife crisis or in my case when I was faced with severe depression that brought it out in a big way. 

I’m not sure how much I fear death, but rather what I will be thinking about when it happens. I guess it could possibly be argued that I fear the fear a bit more. I don’t fear it in a way that I am necessarily scared of something like a meteor falling on my head when I am not paying attention or dying in my sleep. This famous Woody Allen quote might definitely ring true for me, “I’m not afraid of death; I just don’t want to be there when it happens”.

It can be absolutely mind-boggling what a person can think at times. I can recall in the past during some depressing times, having some suicidal thoughts because I didn’t want to feel the fear of death anymore. The thoughts can really consume you. It can really be just the thoughts themselves you are so scared of.

But, I bought a book called “Free yourself from Death anxiety”. I figure I will give a read and see if it can get me down some new mental paths and open my mind in new ways. Hopefully it helps anyways. I will ofcourse keep trying to develop some of my own methods as well. Definitely a tricky one, right now it feels like a permanent fixture in my mind. But perhaps that doesn’t always have to be the case.

Will keep you updated on this new Journey. The book should arrive in a couple days and will go from there. Hope everyone is having a good day!

This last birthday was a big one in my schizophrenic universe. It was a date that I clung to for a long time in hopes that my situation would end on that date. By the time the date finally came I didn’t have too much hope that it would actually end on that day. It still became a significant day in my mind though. I thought, either way, this will be a life changing Birthday. It was either going to be a really big life altering event by ending, or a more subtle life altering life changing event by adjusting my thoughts and my outlook on life.

Well, my Birthday has come and gone, so how am I thinking? It’s immediately a bit strange no longer having a target date in my mind. It’s a little like mentally staring out into the void now in that regard. But, by not having a date to latch on into the future, I think I will start focusing a lot more in the present moment. Just take it day by day and try to enjoy the present moment as much as possible. I feel like I will also try and stop wishing time away like I have for the last 15 years or so. 

There just isn’t a date I am searching for in the future anymore. Just the present moment exists. I will just live in the present moment and trust that strength will come to me in challenging moments. I kinda feel like I am somewhere between earth and heaven right now. The present moment is all there will ever be for all eternity, this is living ya know? One day there will be that official crossover from earth and heaven though. I feel like I am on my journey to Heaven, but part of me feels like I am already there and experiencing it.

I plan to apply for disability again soon. Hopefully I will get it one of these times as I still find work to be a pretty traumatic experience for me. I think something will work out anyways, whether disability or some money or something will find its way to me somehow. I am having more faith these days that a path will open up. I believe that on a couple fronts. One, I truly feel I do have a disability and that eventually it should work out because that is true. Perhaps, I had to get the runaround like almost everybody else for a period of time, because that is kind of the natural way of the current system and the rules of my situation often have to do with living a “normal life”.

Two, I think something changed when I went back to college and got on a path to creating a sociology blog. I followed the correct steps to make it happen and feel it was denied to me. Did well in all the classes and took the appropriate writing and blogging classes. I feel like in my blogging class, especially with it being one of the kind of one on one classes with your professor, I should have gotten more guidance. I feel like in the real world a professor would have helped me really try and make my blog work. But, I didn’t get too much guidance or feedback at all. So, I feel like a career was kind of stolen from me.

Then, not long after my blogging class and maybe even during it, some money found its way to me. I don’t want to discount the great generosity shown to me in the gift, but in all the previous years when I was really struggling and severely suicidal and all that I never really got anything. Part of me feels that I earned that money. I feel some deal was reached that they wouldn’t allow me to have a successful blog, but they would pay me in another way. A way that would still hide my intelligence and keep me in my schizophrenic world.

But I wonder if that career is still kind of owed to me. Perhaps it wasn’t just a one time buy out. Maybe some money will always find its way to me in some form, within limits of course. It might even be a reason that will help me get disability insurance eventually. I don’t know, but it makes some sense to me anyways. I don’t believe my going to college and then getting money were purely coincidental.

So, part of me still feels like I may truly be a professional blogger and that money just comes to me in unconventional ways. A fun and interesting thought anyways. A thought that makes me feel good in all reality. Kind of gives me some extra drive to keep the blogosphere going, besides my just natural enjoyment of it, as well as its therapeutic properties.

Suppose I will leave it there for the day, not really too much on my mind in all reality. A couple weeks before my birthday I was all pent up a bit and had so much I wanted to say after my Birthday, but that has largely been like washed away from my mind and a calm has settled in. I’m honestly in a pretty good place mentally right now. Hope everyone has a good day!

This post will probably come off as a bit crazy, but here it goes anyways… If I am being honest, I feel so connected to Heaven anymore that I almost feel alien on this planet a bit. I have this ultimate fantasy in my head that when this situation ends that there is going to be some big movement of the Holy Spirit that might usher in lots of miracles and hopefully sometime not long after that, bring about the rapture.

I feel like being stuck in this situation keeps me tethered to Earth and its Earthly ways. So, by being stuck in this situation, I feel I will continue to experience what it means to be Human on Earth and all that comes with it. I was hoping for that ultimate fantasy and the potential to kind of skip the second half of life here. 

I will also continue to experience life from the angle of the “working class”. Which does make me feel more connected to the world. One thing I was worried about, was that if this situation did end, that I would kind of lose that connection to the “working people”. We are all a big family in my mind.

But it seems I will get the full Human experience and all that comes with it. A once in an eternity experience. I don’t plan to ever experience life from this hardcore of a philosophical concept ever again. And I will still be praying for the rapture.

I suppose in my mind that was like my big chance to maybe be able to avoid the “dying process”. I had this big end of the world type vision in my head that just seemed like the perfect ending to Earth’s story. The fact that this continues just speaks to how deep of an evil resides here on Earth. I am still hoping for the rapture, but am now more and more accepting my Earthly mortality and the prospect of having to go through the dying process. Accepting and also gradually getting more comfortable with it in general.

This is just where I am at mentally anymore though… Heaven is just as real to me as this Earth we are living on. I do all sorts of this like cross dimensional thinking between Earth and Heaven. I am way down the rabbit hole of the connection between Heaven and Earth and Earth’s purpose. And I feel I have a prominent part of the story. This is how and what I really think, I am not lying in the slightest.

I will start off by saying that I am a huge advocate for mindfulness, meditation, and harnessing the present moment. It has done wonders for my life and I try to incorporate it into my life everyday. But, the present moment isn’t always good. I will focus on stressful work for this post.

It’s one thing if you enjoy your job, that can help you be in the present moment. It’s another thing if it causes you stress or pain. Work can be stressful or painful for a myriad of reasons. In these moments when the present moment isn’t good, it’s actually good to incorporate other strategies for getting through your day. Not that it isn’t good to still practice mindfulness in your down time in between difficult work.

Where I am going with this, is the retirement age. And how I see this as another reason that we need to get the retirement age as low as possible. Once people hit that age and have more control over their lives, they can then really harness the power of the present moment and better enjoy their lives. Which, doesn’t even necessarily mean you will stop working all together. But you may want to find a more comfortable job, work part time, turn a hobby into a job, or just turn to a life of hobbies or what have you in general.

Many spiritual gurus don’t necessarily have hard jobs that have lots of stressful present moments. They are already kinda living their “dream job” a bit and are more easily able to find the present moment more enjoyable a better portion of the time. I am not saying they don’t find issues in their life, but when they come to the present moment to find solace, the present moment is a place of peace. They aren’t trying to avoid the present moment, they are trying to live in it.

Hard work is necessary for Human survival though. We need to all put our time in and deal with and navigate a period of turmoil. But our goal should be to make that period as short as possible. Get what needs to be done out of the way, get retirement age low, and move on to better periods and phases of life.

But, I just wanted to say that the present moment isn’t always good. If it was, it would solve a lot of our problems. We would all whistle while we work hehe. But, the reality of life is that a lot of jobs can be stressful and make the present moment not very enjoyable or not enjoyable at all. Work is really one of our biggest enemies in this universe. It causes a lot of stress for people that do it, and it creates a lot of crime from people trying to avoid it, among other things. We should make it our goal to get the retirement age as low as possible while of course getting all the necessary work done first.

Last night while walking into the kitchen I noticed something brown on the floor. At first, I was kinda just going to walk past it or perhaps get a paper towel to clean whatever it was up. Upon closer inspection though, I noticed that it was a slug. I ended up getting a paper towel to pick him up and then put him outside.

Then the next day, right before cracking open my Calvin and Hobbes book, I sneezed. I opened up the book and the first comic I read has the line in it, “What’s the difference between a garden slug and a two-inch long living booger?”. What are the odds of those things all lining up like that?

I have probably only seen a slug inside my home a few times in my entire life. I really have never seen that many in general regardless. And I hardly ever sneeze unless I have a cold or something. So that was also pretty rare. Then that was the exact comic I was on in my pretty much daily reading of a few comic strips.

Being in my situation, I couldn’t help but wonder if someone placed the slug there on purpose knowing what comic I was going to read. But, I would still have to notice the slug and pick it up. Then the fact that I sneezed before just added all the more into the fated encounter.

Definitely felt like another moment the Holy Spirit was letting me know that he is real and that a plan is happening. That Heaven is real. Also a sign that everything is happening as it should and that everything happens for a reason. I’m sure it could imply a lot of things in all reality. But, just letting me know that it’s all real felt like the biggest point of this encounter.

It always seems to come in moments like these, my encounters with the Holy Spirit. Enough to strengthen my beliefs, but not enough to lock everything in as fact in my mind. I feel like he contacts me just enough while keeping in line with this plan. I will be honest, occasionally I might hear a little voice every now and then or have a dream that really affects me. But they are never constant and just enough to keep me in the state of mind that the Holy Spirit wants me in. I know that I am exactly where he wants me to be and in the state of mind that he wants me to be.

The fact that I do hear the occasional voice or meaningful dream implies to me a plan and purpose. Because he could be doing it all the time, but he doesn’t. He is carrying out a plan. Makes me wonder just how powerful the Holy Spirit really could be. Certainly gives me hope in the rapture. I really do believe that he is just saving lost souls right now. At least that is my most logical guess. And he is doing it in the best possible way, a way well beyond our reasoning and understanding. He knows exactly what it takes to change the hearts and minds of a lost soul. It could be so much more complex than we realize. Not to mention he is trying to change so many at the same time. A plan is definitely taking place though in my opinion.

Then I will just add in some random thoughts I have had about Jesus and the New Testament. Part of me really believes that Jesus was hearing the voice of the Holy Spirit constantly. That he was constantly in communication with the Holy Spirit. Seems logical to me anyways. 

I do have a feeling that miracles were and are still possible. That they have been possible this whole time. But, it’s all a matter of if miracles are serving the overall purpose of the plan of this universe. If miracles were useful to the plan right now, I believe they would be happening. Not that little miracles don’t happen everyday, but you know what I mean. I am talking about miracles just becoming part of everyday life around the world. But, perhaps miracles alone aren’t enough to change a hardened heart. Only God and the Holy Spirit truly know how to change the hearts and minds of people, especially on a mass scale.

But anyways, that is probably the most meaningful slug I have ever encountered hehe. Not that all slug encounters aren’t meaningful in their own way. As are all encounters in our life.

In my belief system, I do believe that the rapture is possible. I think along the lines of, is a rapture possible? And if it is possible, why hasn’t it happened yet? I contend that this Universe was created as a trap for Lucifer (Holy Spirit 1.0). That God tried to give us and Lucifer too much freedom of will, and perhaps gave Lucifer too much power. Whatever the circumstance, Lucifer became corrupt and God needed to dismantle him in order to have a fresh start at perfecting his vision for a society of Humans for him to ride along with for all eternity.

In my schizophrenic universe, I believe that Lucifer is now trapped and residing on Earth. That he possessed someone to the fullest extent and manifested himself here. So, in my world, this Universe’s purpose has been fulfilled. It is all about exit strategy now and getting our eternal lives underway. It would make sense now that the Universe’s purpose has been fulfilled, that if a rapture was possible, it would have happened right after he trapped Lucifer. So what is the hold up?

I have two theories on this, both of which involve God valuing life. The first one, is that Lucifer was trying to create some sort of society of his own, or perhaps being evil, some version of Hell. My theory is that Lucifer was given power in this Universe to possess and steal souls. The catch was that a person would have to be sufficiently evil enough for him to do so. In my mind, I think a person would have to be really evil in order for this to happen. I think it was actually a pretty rare occurrence that he could steal souls. But, his goal was to make as many people as evil as possible in order to create his own society or hell.

This actually makes a lot of sense to me, because I feel it gives Lucifer the most motivation to be obsessed with this place and be so driven to carry out a plan. I also have a theory that part of why Lucifer was willing to manifest himself here, is that he felt he had a pretty high percentage chance that he would just be reabsorbed into himself (perhaps by remaining sufficiently evil). I kinda envision Lucifer (Holy Spirit 1.0) and the Holy Spirit (Abram) as these omnipresent clouds in a way. Existing next to each other and essentially connected to everything. I mean, they are in our atom’s or whatever, although I don’t believe that God gave either of them the power to create life. But, I feel when someone was evil enough, that they ended up completely in the cloud of lucifer, out of the reach of Abram. In my mind, our existence actually happens within these Holy Spirit’s. I have a feeling they even possess multiple dimensions within themselves. This universe was created kinda outside of both of them, but they can pull a soul into themselves after a person dies. There is a battle for souls here, with the ultimate plan of trapping the Soul of Lucifer here.

In this theory, sadly it would mean that some people have been “sacrificed” to Lucifer in order for the plan to work. That a few beings were truly lost in this plan/battle. In this theory, those that went into Lucifer’s cloud cannot be saved or rescued. When the plan/war is over and Lucifer is dismantled, these souls will have been lost. But, this is also why I think that the rapture hasn’t happened yet if it is indeed possible.

The rapture hasn’t happened yet in this theory, because Abram (Holy Spirit 2.0) is trying to save as many people as he can that are living right now, but are still in Lucifer’s cloud. Outside of the grasp of Abram. This is how much I believe God and Abram value Life. Because Abram could just rapture us now and dismantle Lucifer, but if he did, so many people that could have potentially been saved, would die. So, valuing life, Abram allows all of this suffering to still take place in this universe while he wins back as many souls as possible. At some point, all of the suffering in the world would still be taking place, just waiting for one last soul. But, that is how much each person means to God and Abram. God and Abram are trying to keep casualties down to the literal absolute minimum. And that is theory 1.

Theory 2, is that God values life so much, that there really isn’t the potential for a rapture. That there is just this Life and Death system that we all go through and that not a single soul will have died. How this Universe would potentially finally close, I am not sure. In this theory, God and Abram have very limited power here in this dimension/universe. In this theory, Lucifer wouldn’t be harvesting souls. He would just be driven by wanting a plan and lifestyle to work out.

I honestly find theory 1 more plausible for a multitude of reasons. For one, it gives Lucifer the most motivation to find himself trapped here in my opinion. I’m not sure if just wanting some on the surface plan to work out would be enough motivation to take the risk of manifesting himself here. Whereas harvesting souls to create his own “kingdom” seems like much stronger motivation. I also feel it would give him more confidence that he would be reabsorbed into himself when he died. That is also why I think it is rare that he gets someone that evil as well. Because if tons of people were sufficiently evil and he already had enough for his kingdom, he also then probably wouldn’t take the risk. I think he had a plan that would really open up the doors to his cloud. A plan that he was obsessed with and excited about. God and the Holy Spirit gave him a vision and a dream of harvesting souls and creating his own kingdom, the dream was so close that he could taste it.

I would also argue that this all points to how much God values life in a different way. How hard he made it to dismantle Lucifer and life in general. This is a really back door plan to shutting down the being and universe that is Lucifer. God does not want life being taken out carelessly, he wants us to exist for all Eternity. He values life more than we can even understand. He will allow this entire universe’s suffering to take place while he rescues one soul if that is the case. Because our temporary suffering isn’t as important as a single eternal life.

And that’s my beliefs about that. That is what I truly believe. My religious beliefs if you will. I find it to be the most logical set of beliefs out there right now. It’s the God is Good Principle. We know for a fact that God exists. This is my logic for if God is Good, then why are we here in this Universe? Why are we still here?

 If I am wrong, it would still certainly make one heck of a movie. hehe.