No beginning of time… it hurts the brain to think about…

When I get to thinking about the logic, that for us to exist, there must be something that always existed, and that there is no beginning of time, or end of time, that a place exists that is just in a state of existence… it is so mind blowing. In our universe, everything has a beginning, and an end for that matter… everything comes from somewhere… something caused it. It is so hard to grasp the concept of something that has just always existed, none the less a being… 

I wonder if it even blows God’s mind a bit to think about it, that he just always existed… that he… didn’t come from anywhere, wasn’t create, always existed…. It hurts to think about haha… He has just always been there and conscious…  

How does that work? Haha, it is the logical truth that makes it all the more mind blowing. Just always existed…  

It’s nuts… and it hurts thinking about it… it is just one of those facts you have to accept about life I suppose…. It would be weird to be God and thinking, I have always been thinking, there was no beginning of thinking… no birthday of consciousness or existing… 

I gatta stop thinking about this… the ultimate non-paradox that will always be completely mind blowing…